Airing out my feelings

Hey guys,

Soo I’ve read the question over and over again in my head trying to put my self in that situation and understand the whole situation because I don’t know anyone who has been adopted before.

If I was in this kind of situation where it was revealed to me by people who I’ve called my parents my whole life that they aren’t actually my parents, that I was adopted by them and out of all the kids I’m the only one who was adopted. I’d feel sad, angry, different and even unfortunate, like my world was turning upside down. My feelings would be all mixed up inside me it would lead to me feeling ostracized and frustrated.

I would be angry at them depending on how long they had kept me in the dark, because I feel something like this it’s better to say it to the person involved when they are still young than when they are older soo they wouldn’t feel soo hurt about it even when they think of it. I’d be sad thinking they’re feelings may not be as strong for me as they’re own biological children and I’d feel different knowing I’m the only child out of all the rest who was adopted and not born of them.

I feel like if it was me I would want to find out who my family was to know my roots and where I come from and why or what reasons led to my being abandoned in the first place. To be able to see them and ask them some questions like why probably for closure would also be good.

With all the feelings going through me I might need space and time to think about everything thoroughly. Even at that though I know for a fact I would not give up on the family that took me in when I wasn’t even sure anyone would and loved me as best they could and if was treated well and lucky oved while growing up I would still love them knowing they just didn’t know how to tell me I was adopted maybe out of fear that I’d hate them or not see them as my family again.

Soo from my own point of view or my thoughts I would be sad but also try to understand where they were coming from I would also prefer to be told by the two important people I grew up knowing as parents than to hear it from outsiders who might end up using it as an insult to me or to make me feel insecure or a certain way about myself. Knowing about it already from when I was young wouldn’t affect me soo much when I tell people about it or if people try to use it against me.

These are my thoughts on this question. With how much I tried to imagine it being me I almost cried while writing this.
Pls be kind and tell me what you think as I’m still new to the space called Hive.

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