LOH194:sharing my thoughts

When I am alone, sometimes I try not to think but I can't help it. There are certain times I miss my mom and my sister(younger), I miss them so much. It's not that they are both late but they aren't here with me and I can't easily reach them when I want to.

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Sometimes when I face a problem and I don't know what to do, I will pick my phone and want to talk to my mom about it and hear her words of advice, just then I remember she is no longer with me in the land of the living. I always ask myself what will my mom ask me to do or what will she say?

My sister is my best friend. We share everything secret, she is always there when I need an advice on what to do if I'm not sure. Dude to distance I can't easily talk to my sister, so when I need to talk to her and I can't reach her on phone, I ask myself what would she tell me? She always adviced me to be strong and to keep moving forward.

Being alone with my thoughts can be comforting but also sad. I feel the weight of their absence and sometimes it is overwhelming. These inner thoughts and fears are part of who I am. They remind me of the love and support I had and help me navigate through life.

Even though my mom is not here physically, I still fell connected to her in my heart. I don't always get to see or hear from my sister due to distance and nature of her work but I always feel she is with me. It's not always easy at all but thinking of them helps me to carry on.